A few days ago, I wrote a blog post entitled ‘This is Not My Story – This is OUR Story‘ and I encouraged people to see how we are in this together and need to respond by thinking of others first. The post was not about me, or my family – it was about us as a collective, and the difference we can make together.
This post is much more personal. With my mom’s permission, I am sharing her journey. I do so not for empathy (though your positive vibes are more than welcome), but so that the story of COVID-19 becomes more personal for you. It is my belief that stories are what connect us. Stories inspire us, lift us up, help us heal. Through story, we begin to make sense of these crazy times, and we begin to understand why our actions matter.
My mom is a healthy, happy, and social woman. For a stranger reading this, you probably think – ok -got it – your average woman. For those who know my mom, you are smiling knowing it’s much more than that. My mom has the energy of 100 people. Whenever people comment on my energy or drive, I tell them I am the ‘scaled-down’ version of my mom. To give you an example, my mom raised my brother and me as a single mom. On top of this, she worked full time as a teacher and then as a school principal. It doesn’t stop there. She also owned a catering business at the same time, sold Mary K and helped raise funds for many community events or charities.
My mom has two passions – cooking, and helping others. As you can imagine, those two gifts blend nicely. Now retired, it is not uncommon for my mom to cook for schools or churches, preparing meals for 100 or more out of the kindness of her heart. She also travels and spends lots of time with her husband, sisters, kids, and grandkids. She is ALWAYS on the go – and never misses a good sale. She can shop for hours. She usually has her Christmas shopping complete 11 months in advance. She is eternally positive, funny, sarcastic and full of grit. There truly is no one like her.
A month ago my mom and stepdad went on a cruise in the Caribbean. This is not an area heavily impacted by COVID-19, especially in February. Unfortunately, their cruise was stuck at sea as there was a Norwalk Virus outbreak so they floated through the Caribbean waters without getting to see their ports. While others were disappointed, this didn’t stop my mom. She was excited to enjoy the warm air, get a partial refund and a credit for another cruise. She saw the positive side of life when others could not.
After returning to Canada in February (and before we had learned much of COVID-19 in Canada), my mom developed a cough. She had not been to a country of concern so this was deemed a common cold. The cough worsened but other than that she was symptom-free with good energy. My mom went about her regular routine for two weeks, visiting Seattle and Bellingham as well as many shops and services in Greater Vancouver. She saw friends, spent time with family and continued to live life a million miles an hour. Around March 6th my mom started to develop flu-like symptoms. By the 11th, her cough had become persistent so we convinced her to get a swab for COVID-19 just in case. The doctor told her to self isolate while she awaited results but told her not to worry too much as she didn’t seem to have the typical symptoms.
On March 13th, my mom’s 74th birthday, she became incredibly weak after not eating for two days. Her cough was so significant she could not hold a conversation. She tried calling for her swab results but they were not yet available. At the time, the wait was 2-3 days. We learned that results are not given on Saturday or Sunday so she would need to wait until Monday. This seemed like a minor inconvenience as she could not get out and see others, but with her fatigue and cough, she was content to wait. That evening, she became weaker and my brother and I felt she might need hospitalization. We convinced her to call 911 around 8 PM. The ambulance took three hours. When it arrived, they told her they were worried she would contaminate the ambulance and it would take hours to disinfect it. She had two choices – they could arrange for my stepdad to drive her and have a quarantined space ready upon arrival or they could drive her but then it would take hours to disinfect the ambulance. They chose option one, and the paramedics followed behind the car to make sure she arrived safely.
On Friday night, around 11 PM, my mom began living in isolation in a small hospital room. Upon arrival, the hospital staff still couldn’t get lab results so they re-swabbed her. They put my mom on oxygen to help her breathe. She was given an IV with fluids and antibiotics. We were hopeful things would start to improve.
The weekend was rough. My mom was not eating and needed oxygen. She became extremely nauseous and couldn’t even read without feeling sick. Her physical health continued to struggle and her mental health started to decline. Her texts were infrequent and short. She could not talk on the phone. My mom, who has never experienced anxiety, could no longer cope. You see, isolation is not what you expect. It’s not a comfortable private room with working amenities. It’s more like a jail cell than a typical hospital experience. In isolation, you have very little human contact. Family and friends cannot visit. Flowers cannot be sent to the room because of the respiratory concerns. The door to the outside world stays closed. The nurse visits for a minute or two only a few times per day. There is no shower. There is little room to walk. The TV cannot be turned on because the TV guy would be at risk of a possible infection. If you press the buzzer for water it sometimes takes hours as staff cannot enter without dressing in full protection. The room does not get cleaned. The hospital staff does their best but these are different times.
For five days, my overly social mom paced back and forth in a tiny room the size of a bathroom. In her words, she became a caged animal. Confinement became unbearable. My mom requested to be put in a coma until the results were ready. She broke down mentally and needed anxiety medication and sleeping pills to help her cope. Her spirit was broken. Never in my 45 years have I seen my mom lose hope. Still – no results.
My mom describes her wait:
One of the glitches to the system is that test results are only available Monday – Friday, 8:30-4:30 which creates extreme stress while people wait. We have to assume we do have the virus so isolation is mandatory. Every day, the doctors told me, once I was off oxygen I could go home and self isolate. Every day I asked if they had results. Each day they replied – ‘maybe tomorrow’.
The days and nights were long. I asked for sleeping pills but the first two nights they wouldn’t give me any. By the second night, I was beginning to go crazy. I told them I needed a psychiatrist to help me through this. They gave me Ativan. By this time my family had brought photos I could look at (that the nurse delivered) so I managed ok with just a sleeping pill.
I remember thinking – Am I going to die? I thought back to the days I had smoked as a young adult and regretted every cigarette. It’s a mental game as no one has answers for you.
Luckily by Monday, my mom was able to breathe on her own and she was taken off the oxygen. She was told that if she could breathe on her own for 24 hours, she could go home and recover there. Friends and family sent messages and photos and we had the nurses deliver a care package. Her spirit lifted and she ate a chocolate chip cookie. She began to send photos of the horrible food being brought to her room and became a food critic for the hospital meals. She described the horrid salmon sandwich and chunky mulligatawny soup. A chef at heart, she was less than impressed, but with little appetite, she took a few bites purely for survival. We smiled knowing her sarcasm had returned. She awaited her diagnosis and packed her bag ready to escape as soon as she could. Still no results.
Tuesday came and my mom continued to improve. She reached the 24-hour mark and thought she was on standby to go home. She anxiously waited for the door to open so a doctor could set her free. The staff explained that with the provincial change to centralized testing, her results would come through the CDC, but the CDC closes at 4:30 PM and doesn’t give results in the evening. She would have to spend one more night. Frustration set in as my mom waited in the same pajamas, with greasy hair and no access to a shower. They explained they couldn’t risk bringing in a portable shower as she may infect it. With her cough subsiding a little, my mom was able to talk on the phone and my kids were able to help her learn how to download a solitaire app. Friends and family sent texts and she hung on to hope that she would be going home. Her health and her spirit began to improve.
On Tuesday evening, my mom was told she tested positive for COVID-19. It’s hard to say when she contracted it. The hospital suspects it is from her travels but it’s hard to determine. She is the first confirmed case at her local hospital. While the staff tried their best, it was obvious no one truly knew what to do.
When the results finally came in, they did not know what to do with me. They told me to pack my bags and wait for an evening ambulance to transfer me to another hospital. I had to wait 11 hours for the ambulance to arrive. Once it arrived, it had to be disinfected. I did not understand why I was going to a new hospital. After waiting up all night and pacing, I told the staff how scared I was. They gave me Ativan.
Finally, a nurse named Wendy who had just returned from her vacation challenged this process. She got in touch with a doctor who decided I could self isolate at home. Since I no longer required oxygen, I could self-quarantine. When I found out I could go home, it felt like I had won the lottery.
I write this post because I want you to know what COVID-19 can be like for seniors and those with compromised immunity. Up until two weeks ago, my mom was physically and mentally strong and healthy. COVID-19 can attack the human body while isolation can attack the soul. As this disease spreads, please use my mom’s story to remember to check in on others and find ways for human connection.
In many ways, my mom is one of the lucky ones. She is one of the first few hundred people to be diagnosed in BC and one of the first few dozen to be hospitalized. This means she was able to access all the services and equipment needed to help her survive. My mom will make it through this journey while others may not. As hospitals become more crowded, some may not be able to access the resources made available to my mom. This is why YOU have to act now. Isolation at home is much more convenient that isolation at a hospital.
If you are symptom-free and reading this, please think twice before going about your daily routine. The more we limit community engagement, the more we will protect ourselves and others. Ask yourself if you really need that latte or stop at the bookstore. Replace face to face errands with online purchases. Choose take-out over dining in. Put your to-do list on hold. Do not assume that travel to a low incidence area is safe.
This is the time to think of family, friends, neighbors, or strangers we have yet to meet. Send positive thoughts to my mom and every other human around the world simultaneously battling COVID-19. The coming days and weeks may just be the most significant days of our lives to make a positive contribution to our society.
Your precautionary measures will save lives. As much as you can, please stay home.
Love you mom.
March 23 Update: My mom is home and working towards a full recovery. Her appetite is back and symptoms are subsiding, and she is growing stronger every day. Thank you for your hope and prayers. It worked!
You are as always in my prayers!
Please thank your mom for sharing her story. She has gone through so much but has helped so many by doing this.
What a powerful story. Thank you so much for sharing. I hope your mom is well and truly on the mend.
I’m glad to hear your mom is on the mend Kristi. I’m in self isolation right now as I was travelling last week and don’t want to expose anyone in my family to the possibility of this pandemic. Thank you for sharing this story, it makes isolation at home much more bearable.
I’m so happy for you and your family that your mom has survived this ordeal. I am stunned at the slowness of getting the results of her test for Covid 19. ❤️
Sandi (Lori’s aunt)
Thank you for sharing your Mom’s story. It will encourage people, specially seniors to be more vigilant right now. I am a senior myself, and I am grateful that you took the time to warn us.
People need to hear this!
Dear Kristi & Mom:
My eyes were filled with tears of joy as you described your fabulous Mom, then my eyes were filled with liquid anxiety, dread, and grief as your mom got sick and had to isolate while not knowing. Now my eyes are filled with tears of relief, hope, and confidence that your wonderful Mom is already healing, both physically and emotionally now that she is not in that horrible limbo and tiny hospital room by herself anymore. What a harrowing story and you both told it so well, Kristi & Mom. I look forward to hearing your updates as you all support each other as your Mom continues to heal. Meanwhile, your story is very instructional about the need for ALL of us to physically isolate as long as necessary in order to help each other to remain COVID-FREE. It is true that we are ALL in this TOGETHER. Big air hugs for all of your family, dear Kristi & Mom. J🤗 Wishing you a rapid and full recovery, Mom. 🌷🐦🌻 Sincerely, Karen Hertz
On Thu, Mar 19, 2020, 2:36 PM Hopeful Learning: Kristi Blakeway wrote:
> hopefullearning – Kristi Blakeway posted: “A few days ago, I wrote a blog > post entitled ‘This is Not My Story – This is OUR Story’ and I encouraged > people to see how we are in this together and need to respond by thinking > of others first. The post was not about me, or my family – it was about us > ” >
Karen is a remarkable woman. Thank you for sharing her story. We all must do our part by staying home and practicing social distancing. Think globally and do what is right for humanity. It’s about WE, not ME.
Hi Kristi. Thank you for sharing your moms story. She always has been such an amazing lady. I remember the time her freezer broke and she had so much food so she cooked it all up and she, you and your kids took to the downtown streets and fed the homeless. Wonderful , caring lady ( and you too!). I hope she continues her recovery and is back to her amazing self soon. Love Ingrid ( one of the bridesmaids) ❤️
Thanks to you and your Mom for sharing her story. It’s an extra incentive for those of us who are seniors, especially with pre-existing conditions (which includes just about everyone I know over 70) not to cheat on our self isolation. Glad to hear your Mom is healing and hope she will soon be back to her super-energetic self.
Thank you for sharing. Your message is profound! I hope your mother continues to improve and has a full recovery both physically and mentally❤️
Thanks for sharing this Kristi!! Thoughts and prayers are with your mom for a full recovery.
Let’s hope that everyone takes this seriously NOW!!! Shut things down!!
Thank you for sharing! Sending to everyone I know
Thank you both for sharing. So glad that your mom is on the road to recovery. Her story is a wake up call for anyone being complacent about this virus and self isolation. Let’s be smart everyone and stop this one in its tracks!
Wow. What an amazing story. Kristi please let your Mom know we are praying for her for a full recovery. We are still in Mexico unable to get an earlier flight home, scheduled to leave on April 1st. Yes, we will be self isolating upon our return.
Thank you for sharing!! Thoughts and prayers to your mom and family!!
Thank you all for sharing your story. I am so happy that your mom is on the way to recover. I think the isolation part and people not get engaged at all is hard part than a diseases. It’s very important as you said of taking care one another. What an amazing story.
Thank you! Yes, there is power in your Mom’s story – she is all of us! Sending love to you and your family. I will share this important message with everyone!
Thank you, such an important record for us all. Thank goodness your mum is recovering.
Wow!, what a harrowing story! So glad to hear you mom is on the road to recovery Kristi. Her story is a testament to the severity of this virus. I wish all those people who still think it’s okay to stand inches from each other would read your story. Keep yourself and your family safe.
I know your mom; my sons attended Buckingham Elementary. The woman I remember was an absolute dynamo. She was strong, dedicated, confident, and giving. All of those things and an absolutely wicked sense of humor. I am so sorry that she had to go through that experience and so happy that she is recovering. Just like Karen to recover and contribute to the herd immunity; still giving. My wife Leslie and I send her and her family our love. Ask her to send me an e-mail when she feels up to it; I would love to hear from her.
Sending Prayers to your Mom.. I am very similar in so many ways like her. ( I am 71) My son sent me this as he didn’t think I was taking it seriously…Now I am.. I was afraid to read the end of the story, but so glad I did! Hoping her health continues to improve. sending love from our little community in Ta Ta Creek, BC…(20 minutes north of Kimberley) xoxoxoxox
Blessings and healing to your mom. I am so happy to hear that she is a hero of the pandemic. I’m glad she made it. Thank you for sharing this very important story. Peace and Love, Kat from Northern Virginia
What a story – reality in this day/age shouldn’t be so hellish for an amazing woman and you and
your family Kirsti. All best wishes to your Stepdad and of course to your dear Mother hopefully in gradual recovery mode now. I’ll say a little prayer for all of you (thanks Diane). I hope this sees media attention. Let’s FLATTEN the CURVE now.
What a horrific struggle your mother has gone through….to survive it is nothing short of a miracle. Bless your hearts for having the strength to share her story to help others. I wish her so much love and happiness as she continues to heal and get well. Thank you so much. ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your Mum’s incredible story. It gives people hope that you can recover.
Thank you for sharing your story….God bless her and your family. Yes we all need to hear of a happy ending.
Kristi and Mom thank you so much for sharing your story. My son from Canada sent it to me. I am 72 years young and live in the beautiful mountains of North Carolina.
I have been blessed, challenged, and given hope by your story. Mom you are one courageous lady! You have a beautiful family and friends who stood by you through this terrible experience. I will be staying in from this day forward, even though the last time I went out I wore a mask and gloves. I told the young man at the grocery store that I was going to rob a bank afterward and he said it should work! Keep up that sense of humor it’s what keeps us all girls going. Sending hugs and prayers for your speedy recovery. ❤️🙏🏻❤️
Thank you for your moms story it helps to make people realize how serious this virus is. Best wishes to all of you, so glad your mom is well. Thoughts and prayers to all of you.
This was a good read. I don’t understand WHY such a long wait for the results. That’s nuts 😩Wishing your mom a full recovery ❤️❤️
Your Mom is truly Blessed. I do hope EVERYONE takes heed , your friends & loved ones are just a phone call or E- Mail away. This will pass & we will return to normal . Until then stay positive & in touch with one another. Blessings to All
Thanks to you and your Mom for sharing. I hope that everyone who reads this story takes heed.
Thank you for taking the time and emotional energy to share this story. It puts this virus in perspective for all and especially as I am 72 but healthy – dance give garden tours. Upsetting how it was so isolating and the wait times and the fear. I hope we are all practicing social distancing. Our news channels are clear and events, schools, restaurants closed but still some foolish people will not heed. I will re-post. Kept reading to hear how she did and was so relieved she survived.
What an incredibly powerful story. Yes, we learn so much when we hear other people’s stories. Thank you for sharing your personal journey through this complex and unpredictable time. May your mom continue to shine in your lives. ❤ she sounds like an amazingly determined soul.